So many facets

I'm finding that there are so many different levels of anxiousness, anticipation, excitement and nerves coming up on the half. Lately, its been a bit of anxiousness with a lot of excitement. But last night, I think the whole experience really hit home, and I was up half the night with nerves and anxiety. This is NOT a good few days to not be able to sleep when I need my sleep most...not cool, body, not cool. And with no dam or facebook to take my mind off things, there's not much else to distract me. I think mommy needs a drink tonite to calm the nerves...LOL the no calorie version would be an 800mg pill of ibuprofen, which might be a better option. We'll see.

We actually went to the grocery store last night (*gasp*) so I have a decent meal plan for the day. Breakfast today was oatmeal and an organic twisted fruit bar. Lunch was a Lean Cuisine pizza. Afternoon snack was a tbsp of peanut butter. Dinner was Birdseye 4 Cheese skillet meal. My evening snack was a Kashi cereal bar to end my day at 1045 calories. It's low but I really wasn't that hungry today.

Output: Not much this evening. I have quite a headache so will be going to bed early tonite I think.

Happy Hump Day

That's about all I can think of for a title, not feeling very profound tonite...lol

I'm still on sabbatical, can't believe that tomorrow morning, it will have been a whole week. It's been difficult these last couple days to keep it up, but I have to believe that I'm doing this for a reason, and that it will have a benefit. I sure wish I could snap out of this funk.

Food today was just ok. For breakfast I had a granola bar. Lunch was Sonic since I had to run errands, but I was good. I had a grilled cheese sandwich and apple slices (and an unsweet tea). Then I had baked chips for an afternoon snack. This evening, a friend of mine was doing a fundraiser at Tin Star, so we ended up there. I got chicken quesadillas (used almost none of the sourcream since I don't really like it), and then chips and salsa, to end my day at 1500 calories. I think I overestimated on the chicken quesadilla, but it was a lot of chicken in there.

Output: nothing but a trip to Kroger this evening.

Just One More Mile

Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use. ~Earl Nightingale

As I wind down this half marathon training and prepare for the big day (5 days away!!), I find myself thinking back on what has brought me to this point. We started this almost 4 months ago. May 24th. I thought September was such a long way away, and that the odds of sticking with this were slim, but was game for it anyway. I think the key to being successful at this training, was the training program we found and implemented. It was baby steps. The training started us out at 3-4 miles. It kept us at 3-4 miles walking except for one day a week, we'd bump up a mile. One week was 4, then 5, then 6, and then three weeks of 7 to gain confidence in it. And so on. There's no way I could have gone from walking 3 miles to 13 in 4 months without those gradual bumps. I remember every single week we'd bump up a mile, and I'd think, oh its 'just one more mile' than before, I can do that. I can do another 20 minutes max, on up to a 12 mile walk a week and a half ago. And now 4 months have passed since that first 3 miles, and I'm set to walk 'just one more mile'. On Sunday, I'll be walking 13.1 miles, a half marathon. And I have no doubts that I will accomplish this.

Prepped for battle

The battle of a kid who knows a needle is headed his way with an injection. I took D this evening to get two immunizations that he already HAD over a year ago, but the state of Texas says he was 2 months EARLY in getting (these two are apparently required no earlier than the 4th birthday). So to stay in school, he needs to get them. It was off to the doctor as soon as I got him as they are only open late one evening a week. I girded my loins for battle. The little man has never taken a shot easily. Even when he'd already been numbed last year, he fought through getting stitches put in his ankle AND taken out. And his scream is glass shattering. Lord love him. But it's over. My ears are still ringing, but its done. It took 3 of us to hold him down. OY.

Today was an interesting day food-wise. I had oatmeal for breakfast. Lunch was a Jimmy Johns Slim ham and cheese Sandwich, then baked chips, and a pickle. My afternoon snack was a tbsp of peanut butter as I am in dire need of groceries...lol will probably go tomorrow at lunchtime to stock up on fruits and frozen meals. Dinner...well...I kind of promised D ice cream for dinner once he got past his shots. He asked me a gazillion times if he was gonna cry during them, and I told him over and over, its ok to cry. Well he screamed his lungs sore but in the end, he did not cry. He said to me on the way out, "I didn't cry, mommy!" He was proud of himself. I told him I was proud of him for getting through the shots, but that I'd be just as proud of him if he had cried, because he walked in there with me knowing he was getting shots. Too bad he fought once we got IN the room, but he was brave going into it. I had not tried to hide it from him, he knew.

Output was a 20 minute stationary bike ride again, still working on keeping my legs ready to go for sunday...5 days!

Still on sabbatical

When will it end? I have no idea. It's been over 96 hours (4 days) since I've gotten on DAM or FB. I'll admit, I've had my moments of really missing them, but I've found other things to occupy my time (that Law and Order:SVU Marathon and the tension of the Cowboy game last night really helped LOL!). I do need to get on DAM sometime this week to get ready for the BLC which starts on Friday and I have a commitment to do that, but other than that, I honestly don't know. I think some of this has been really good for me, but the first two days of it, it was difficult to not want to fill that online void with food. Last night was a lot easier for that though, although it helps that due to AF being awful I can't move around much. Big help there.

The Half is coming up in a mere 6 days...6 days! I have some big plans coming for October to really start working on running more, but I'll announce those on October 1st. No, its not anything SUPER special, but I have been really inspired by Paula and Libby's Running Streaks, and I'd like to attempt a similar challenge.

This morning I wanted a slightly more filling breakfast than just oatmeal so I ended up having a pbj and baked chips. It sounded good at the time. Lunch ended up being Sweet and Sour Chicken (very little sauce on the side) with rice. Dinner was KFC. I got grilled chicken breast with mashed tatoes, no gravy, and green beans to end my day at 1320 calories.

Output: another 20 minutes on the bike. I want to keep my legs warmed up even though I can't walk right now due to AF.

A quiet day

We didn't do a lot today with AF being a PITA. D and I did get out of the house for a bit to meet my aunt for lunch but that's about it, we came home so he could take a nap, and just relaxed the best of the day.

I didn't eat breakfast since we slept in a bit. Lunch was at Uncle Julio's. I had some chips, salsa, and queso, plus one tortilla, and then my aunt and I split chicken quesadillas. Dinner was spaghetti, chicken nuggets and green beans. This evening I had some animal crackers to end my day at 1422 calories.

Output: not much but I did do 20 minutes on the exercise bike just to get SOMETHING in today.

Day with a sleeping angel

Do they come any sweeter than this?

Nope, I don't think so! Despite AF being a PITA today, we joined my friend Kristen and her beautiful newborn out at Stonebriar for lunch, shopping and then a movie. We had such a great time!

My food sucked today though. I WAY underestimated my lunch calories, so it just kind of killed the rest of the day. *sigh* I didn't go way overboard but it was not a good day.

Output: we needed to get up and walk 6 miles this morning but AF was not having it, so I cancelled. I'm definitely grateful its not going to affect next weekend but I was hoping for one more longish walk before the half. It will be late this coming week that I'll even be able to do a good walk, but I'm going to try and get in some short milers just to keep it up.