Biggest Loser Finale Tonite!

I watched this tonite and just wanted to say CONGRATS to Michelle!!! She was my favorite going into the night and I'm SO GLAD she won it! (And apparently she's a local Dallas girl!!!) She did a great job, and looks absolutely amazing!!

She made a comment that stuck with me though. "Surrender to the process", its what got her through these past months at home. Think on that. I know I am, I'll post a blog later on what I get from it, need to ponder on it more.

If D knew how to cuss...

and I'm very fortunate that he does not yet, but he SO would have this morning, when he got his first taste of ice. I sent him out to the car this morning, not realizing that our patio was iced over. Two seconds later, D went bottom first on to the ground. Does it make me a bad mom that I cracked up laughing? The expression on his face was just PRICELESS! It was truly a "WTF!" moment. And the po baby could not get up by himself either. OMG, po thing. lol The next ten minutes, alllll the way to school, he kept exclaiming to himself, "I slipped! I slipped!" He just couldn't get past it.

In other news...I'm even more injured now. :( My thigh (pulled muscle) has been doing "ok" but it has its moments. It was fine at walmart last night and my workout, but a bit later, I was just walking back from the bathroom, it spasmed and made my knee go weak and give out...I went knee first into the tile. So now my knee is all nice and bruised. Its actually kinda purty. Blech. IT hurts like heck but I'm very well drugged up on ibuprofen right now so its feeling somewhat better. Prayers for swift healing are always greatly appreciated!

PSA of the day

If you have the opportunity to get gas on a day when the high is in the upper 60s, low 70s, please do it. Otherwise, you might find yourself shivering at 7am getting gas when the temp dropped suddenly overnight, its almost freezing, and while the E light hasn't come on yet, its close, and you have a 16 mile commute to work. And the windchill makes it even worse. True story. I'm still thawing out and berated myself the whole way through it.

On a good note though, it so totally rocks to fill up from almost Empty with only $20. I love it!

Bout dang time!

Today is official weigh-in day for the week, and I'm very pleased to announce that:

I'm off that crappy plateau!!! I weighed in at 252.2 this morning, which is the lowest its been since November 12th when I hit 254.4 and then it went back up to 257.8. Its been such a frustrating month, but I'm glad that I've found more resources to take control of my body and get the rest of this weight off!

So...just had to share. I might actually hit below 250 before Christmas! I so didn't want to start off the new year over 250...so this is progress!

A yummy splurge day!

Ok I was very hesitant to have a splurge, since I think I'm JUST now coming off this plateau. But I did it anyway. However I got in two workouts today. So I'm happy with that. I guess.

However, my leg WAS doing better, and it at least allowed me to DO the two workouts, but the rest of the afternoon kinda sucked on that. Everytime I step wrong, a spasm goes through my upper thigh. It hurts like a mother when that happens!!!

Hopefully it will heal fast. I'm going to forego a walking workout tomorrow, in favor of swimming tomorrow evening, so maybe that will help to rest it.

In other news, today is my 8 year Work Anniversary! Go me! I can't believe I've been at my job since I was 21, I've spent the majority of my adult life here. Its definitely flown by, I've owned a house, adopted a child, moved severalllllllll times. There have been so many changes, its not even funny! They've really gotten to see me grow up and mature. I'm not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing...lol

Maybe, could be???

I'm SO hesitant to post this...but I "might" be coming out of this plateau! I was down this morning (finallyyyyyy), but I won't post the number here just in case...lol I can't wait for Saturday weigh-in though to see if its still low.

I wonder how much cardio I'll be able to do the next few days though. Yesterday morning, I sustained a minor injury. I think I pulled a muscle in either my groin or my thigh. Normal strolling is fine, although I have a slight limp. But if I overextend it at all, I about fall out on the floor! Uggh. So no early morning workout today, but its a light day anyway since we have a splurge tomorrow, so I'm going to try and walk at lunch, and just try to keep the pace as much as possible. Oh and drug up on ibuprofen before I go. lol Friday night I think we are going to go swimming again to try and counteract tomorrows indulgence.

Funny story. When I picked up D from daycare yesterday, he was in time-out. On the other side of the room, a little girl was in time-out too. When I asked what happened...yeah, he and the little girl had been smooching!!! Acck! Darn kids starting early! I told him, "don'tchu know you're only allowed to kiss your momma!!!" lol *sigh* I can see his teen years now...omg...

Who for...

At some point in this crazy thing we call Weight Loss, you have to figure out who you are doing it for. And I've come to learn, you can't do it for anyone but yourself. It just doesn't work any other way. I'd like to say that I do this for D, but I know its not the truth. Sure, he might be some of my motivation to keep going, and its nice to have more energy to deal with him, but he's not why I'm doing this. I could say I'm doing this because I know people are watching the blogs. And
while that might be the truth, and its also some motivation because who wants to post that you just ate a crapload of cheesy junk food! But its also not WHY I'm doing this. I'm doing this for me. Because I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. And once you hit a goal, then you know you CAN. And so can't just give up. Its like you would tell a child who says "I can't do it!!", I KNOW you can do it because I've seen you do it before, even if you don't want to try it right now. And
having lost 75 lbs, I now know I can, so whats another 75 in the big scheme of things?

And I've really come to realize this more over the last few weeks, especially with this dang plateau (on a sidenote: I'm so used to saying dang/damn/freakin plateau on here that I almost said it out loud in front of my grandma the other day...oops!). At some point, you have to
suck it up and realize that YOU are the only one who can make the decision, the only one who makes the choice each day to do what you are going to do. Its given me the strength to know that I really can do this on my own when the time comes for it. Sure, its nice to have the
accountability of the blog, which is something I doubt I will ever stop doing, but the dynamic of your weight loss changes when you pull the strength from within and don't rely on others to be strong for you. The only perfect human ever was Jesus. HE will never fail us. But we are
human, we fail. And its ok. The key is, what you do when you do fail. Do you allow that to set you back? Ya know, I think in some cases, its ok to take a step back and re-evaluate what you are doing. Two steps forward, one step back, right? As long as you keep taking those steps
forward, it will all work out in the end.

I know this was a crazy long blog, but I really felt like it needed to be written today, and I'm sorry its kind of all over the place. You should have seen the first draft!